Envy for the Unexamined World
I checked out. Earlier this month, for a few days at least, I was able to take a break...from caring. Though a short vacation, the diversion nonetheless provided the opportunity to suspend focusing on the various challenges (e.g. water, energy, climate change) that occupy most of my days. My work is predicated on fixing, in some (minor) way, a broken world. This requires understanding how it is out of whack (hint: it's our fault!). During my few days off, I found myself considering the fantasy of suspending this comprehension, securing a more mundane job, purchasing a car and narrowing my focus to commuting between work, the local big box store and home. It wouldn't be a life of quiet desperation, so much as reinforced ignorance. But I've been in this too deeply for too long to retreat now. Which isn't to say that embracing a narrower view of the world isn't appealing. I just know that after a few days, I'd be bored and eager for something more, however complicating.